Tuesday, May 24, 2011

motivation level: back to zero


 It's not that I like having a dirty room, I really like cleanliness. It's not that I want to rebel against my mom's wishes and have a pig sty for a room, I love and respect my mom. It's not that I forget to clean, I'm reminded of it every day when I wake up. It's not that I'm lazy (although that's a fair assumption). It's that I have no motivation. 
 I've been home from college for just under two weeks. I was completely unpacked with a (mostly) clean room two days later. My motivation? I was leaving for Rockbridge three days after I got back from school. Now that I'm back from Rockbridge, there is nothing motivating me to clean. However, there have been some good attempts: I start my big girl job next Tuesday, but that's a week away and I have plenty of time to clean. I'm going shopping Thursday for big girl clothes, but I'm sick and need to rest. I got new songs on iTunes, perfect for a room cleaning playlist, but that would entail me actually making a playlist. My friend, Marisa, who usually motivates me at school was texting me and trying to help me, but then I was like, I want to do my ab workout. My life is like that, a constant battle between my motivations and demotivations. I tried to make posting a picture of my mess online a motivation, but it just made me want to build a fort with all of the blankets that are on the floor.
 I think I'll try again this afternoon, but first I need to eat lunch.